Okay guys, I give up!

4 months almost, no post. And while thinking that I need atleast 2 pages/day to write here (which is the minimum amount, and without boring details) what happened during last 4 months, well, I would need a lot of time and a new pair of eyes.

So I give up. Yes, I wont try to catch it up here... I will just write now, about now. I'm quite sure that I will provoke myself to make myself mention all the amazingly real stuff happened to me recently, but I will do my best to stop myself from provokating myself.

Now I'm in a eco-house. Arrived here 2 weeks ago. It's a two story wood building and it is more then perfect. I live on the edge of the forest. I'm working on a project about eco-villages. I stay in that house, and alone. I'm free to do whatever I want, do wake up and go to sleep and to watch a movie or whatever, whenever I want. I'm free to walk in the house as I want (naked, semi-naked, semi-dressed). I'm also free to go, whenever and if I want, to watch people working in the wood workshop, or to have a mountainbike ride in the forest behind me, or to join the "fika" (coffee bread, swedish style), or to eat...


I'm so free to do whatever I want that it started to give pain. Really. Of course not, just kidding. Or maybe not. No, I'm not not kidding. I'm so f.king free, working on something I love, spending almost no money to survive, going to some country every month or twice a month (for the meetings of the organizations in which I have some... responsabilities, lets say. and yeah, they pay the costs. Otherwise I'm a poor man, no money to travel around all the time). Well I guess that's "as you sow, so you shall reap" . Or; "You lucky bastard".

Well, that's it. Actually the idea to write a post here came to me when I was thinnking (and writing, for some other purpose) how I finish stuff 2 minutes before they should be done. Well, I'm not exagerating. And that's not an "exceptional" situation for me. Few simple examples :

A) Finished 10 page paper and uploaded just 2 minutes before the absolute deadline (because if you miss it even with a second, the system is down, so you can not upload it). Actually we had 3 weeks to write it down, but I started to write it down night before.  So somehow I managed to organize a "16 hours lenght timeline with a 2 min. risk margin". By the way, I had an A+ from that paper afterwhile, while half of the class failed the course. Of course, the main idea is : Wow, I'm so smart. No fella, we're talking about time management here.


B) Moved out of my house, put all my stuff to my friends' place, cleaned it, went to the train station to leave for abroad. (Thinking of I was going to go thousand of km by train, if I miss one train, I would be fucked up). I reached the station, threw myself on board, and train has left. I made it in last 15-20 sec. And the thing is that I didnt have a single moment of stopping for the last 6 hours of moving out, cleaning and running to train station... So somehow I managed to organize a "6 hour lenght timeline with a 15-20 sec of risk margin"

To finish, I have to point out that Case A happened 5 times to me in my last 6 months, and Case B  happened 2 times (exactly the same), in my last 5 months.

I dont' know how that happens. But there is one thing I know : Along the all extraordinary stuff I witnessed in my life, and I did a big bunch of them, that's the most exciting one for me, ujust because it stands as a proof of how human perception have a limitless power. Perception (or heart, or spirit, or love, or whatever) because, let me say, I never worry about if I'm going to miss something. I calculate the time sometimes, but never worry. I always know that I'm going to make it in the last 34 miliseconds. And I do. Just because "I know I will".


I guess they're not deer, but gazelle maybe?